I am having trouble. I have been banded for 10 days now & my hunger is really returning....badly! Although I am supposed to be on the liquids stage I have actually managed to eat "real food" or what I really mean is "junk food". I mean I have not completely pigged out but I have managed to eat things I shouldn't eat. I am no longer feeling the restriction I initially had and I am finding it harder every day to keep to only liquids. I have tried chewing on gum or just drinking water but the pull seems to be so strong @ times for food....I am an idiot!

Hi, Well its been 1 weeks since my banding (feels a lot longer)and I am slowly recovering. I am still tender around my port area and itchy but other than that ok. I am actually off to the GP today 2 c if he can give me a B12 shot. My appettite is increasing but I am managing to control it pretty well. I am not really following the dieticians rules, but I am managing to drink my water and also have soup etc. I must say @ 1 stage went I felt absolutely crap I though did I make the wrong decision, but I am not feeling like that now thankfully.
I am beginning to think that the band is magical in that, it is giving me the strength to control myself and say no...it is giving me super powers....lol.I will be seeing my surgeon on Thursday 4 a follow up appt and I will asking him if I can go on mushies soon bcos I am so over liquids already.

I have the munchies.....lol

Well its 9:45 on a Friday night and I haven't had a good day emotionally. Had massive argument with hubby and now want to pig out badly! I mean, I am only supposed to be on liquids and I have been good with my liquids pretty much all day......till about half an hour ago. I went to the pantry & grabbed 3 BBQ shapes and I chewed & chewed on them & had some plain yoghurt as well! I feel so, so bad but I couldn't stop myself ! This emotional eating is going to be a problem & I need 2 work out how to walk away from food & not use it!!!!!! I am also worried about my band. I mean I made sure I chewed but u just don't know? I'm an idiot! Will let u know how I go with any side effects I might have. Heres hoping I don't. Keep my fingers crossed.

Well I am finally home from the surgery. It was only an overnight stay and left @ about 11:30 on Wednesday. I am in a lot of pain anytime I move. Have prett much been walking around like a zombie or sleeping. I hope this pain goes away soon.

Tuesday 31st March 2009 - 11:30am

DAY OF SURGERY - OMG!!!!

Well here I am, the big day is finally here! Was up early and got the kids ready for school and actually went into school for a meeting with Tahlia's teacher. Had a funny feeling all morning & wanted to make sure the kids I knew I loved them. Gave Zac a cuddle & told him I loved him. After I hugged him he acted all coy like he didn't want his friends to see it....lol. He really is such a sweet boy. Tahlia was so excited about going back to her class that she didn't even give me a chance to hug her. She is so precious & to me. I love them both very much, even though sometimes I can be very mad @ them & Barrie .....LOL. I love Barrie to bits but sometimes not....lol !

Anyway, Barrie drove me to Western Private Hospital & we paid the $8,500 hospital account & this was on top of the $4,500 for the surgeon & anaesthetist. Feeling very nervous walking into the lift to go up to my room. All thses things going through my head for eg; What if I die?, What if I become a vegetable? I gotta stop thinking those thoughts as I am about to cry while writing this.

Was admitted & taken to Room 11a. Said my goodbyes to Barrie (seemed a bit weird actually saying bye & kissing him?).

Another patient was still in the room in the bed beside me. He was a lovely man. We just chatted in general. I didn't tell him what surgery I was having as I think he would either judge me or wouldn't even know what it was!

Went through the usual rituals of nurse Lisa checking my blood pressure, heart, temperature weight & height. My anaesthetist came & spoke to me & had me fill out a form. Seemed like a nice guy & as long as he keeps me alive that's the main thing! They checked things over and over again. I am actually glad they are obviously taking all these precautions - they need to. They were slightly concerned that my temp was different in each ear. They asked whether my ears hurt (which they don't)Hmmm, I hope this is not going to be a problem. I also had an anti reflux mix - it was horrible!!!

Still sitting and waiting, its 4:00pm.....Been waiting 4.5 hrs on no food....I've been fasting since 7am! Wish they would hurry up.

Will let you know how I go after the surgery.

12th March 2009, 1am (ish),

Well this is it! I have been approved the money for my lap band surgery, so there is no turning back now. My surgery has been booked for the 31st March @ 11:30am. I must admit I am more excited than nervous @ the moment but I am guessing when it gets closer to the date I will feel nervous. I have to start in OPTIFAST soon to help me lose a little bit of weight & also help shrink my liver. After the surgery I will need to be on liquids for about 2 weeks. I am hoping I don't feel too ill after the surgery & recover quickly. I don't have a choice in the matter now, I HAVE TO DO THIS!!!! I mean, I have withdrawn alot of money for this surgery and I am defintely going to use it. Ofcourse Barrie (my other half) didn't want me to do it and says I can do it with excercise & diet. I told him I made my decision and he wasn't going to change my mind. Although, we never really sat down and spoke about @ length I think he came to realise this was a last resort for me. I mean this is purely for me.

I am defintely meeting with family & friends before I start on the OPTIFAST to have my "last suppers".

CHANGE!!!

I HAVE TO change everything about my lifestyle. I HAVE TO sleeping patterns (I don't sllep before 2am most nights), I HAVE TO change my excercise patterns. I HAVE TO CHANGE, CHANGE IS GOOD!!!